16 days ago I purchased a Male Model Figure Doll at Michaels and I decided to do a challenge, draw my "model" for 30 days. Challenging? Yes. I never really have put a challenge on my self, so it was something new.
It is day 16 and I have already grown bored of this challenge. Why? Because im drawing the same doll every single day! I have noticed slight improvements like anatomy of the doll, lights/shadows, placement, and perspectives. I will still continue this challenge.. but I want to change it, I just cant think of a way to do so. My sister recommended that I started to draw the doll more "human-like" but I do not know where the muscles, bones would go, Ive never drawn "naked" people, or better yet, just studied the human body.
On day 15 i drew a baby dragon for the sake of not going "crazy" and rest a bit, still I did details on this little dragon that in the end I thought were challenging as well, I should have had a magnifying glass at hand even though I grew impatient and just "slapped on" the details. Bad idea, but now I know for next time to go a bit more easier on myself.
Thinking about it, Im supposed to be working on a painting of my oldest sister, but I have not yet gathered enough inspiration to start working again, and thus continue with my burden, Procrastination. I know that my art teacher(s) might not like the fact that I once again failed to give on the imaginary dead-line of turning in works late, it took me two years to finish off a piece of horse head, only because I started it the end of my Freshman year, and finished it in the middle/end of Junior year. I question myself why I do such horrible things to myself.... in the end I still cannot find an answer.
Lessons learned? Yes. Continue on with what you love no matter how painful their blows are to you, whether it Procrastination, you might not be ''as good'', its NOT coming out the way you expected, or simply, you hate it, but others love it. In the future you'll look back and say "So this is what got me this far..."