I am a sophomore at the University of Texas at El Paso. As a 20 year old you would think I have more freedom than high school kids do but unfortunately that is not the case. My typical strict, Mexican mother watches my every move and gives me a curfew because I still live under her roof; her house...her rules. I don't party and I don't do illegal things however she still tries her best to over protect me. With a cut in my financial aid my hopes of moving out to the dorms have slowly decreased. The dilemma now is... Do I stay home and deal with these over the top rules for another 2-3 years till I graduate, or do I get a loan and move out? There are so many pros and cons to either decision, which is making my decision extremely hard. I love coming home to home cooked food, I enjoy having my own room, my privacy, my own restroom, and having a car. If I move out I will lose all of those privileges including my car. However, I will gain freedom, I will become far more independent, I will be closer to school, I will be able to focus more, I won't have to drive 45 minutes to get to school anymore, I will be able to make time for ME and not so much what my mom wants. The downside: No privacy, share a room with someone else, lose my car, walk to places or ride the bus if I get a part-time job, I will be forced to learn how to cook, and that means I won't get randomly spoiled like I do living with my parents. There is so much to lose, yet so much to gain. What is it that I want/need more? All I can do is pray on it and hope to make the best decision for ME and no one else.