*for those of you who may not know, this blog post has to do with SXSW. SXSW is week-long festival held in Austin, Texas. The festival goes over Music, Film and Interactive (video games, panels, etc.).
SXSW 2013 was the year for a lot of big movies to be showing, and a lot of important celebrities performing. Which meant, that a lot of A-list celebrities were coming. I for one, enjoy celebrity/entertainment news the most out of the other types of news that I consume, so I was over-the-moon with so many famous people coming to town that, like many girls my age, 'dreamt' of seeing in real life. This year I was also a volunteer and was already in the area. One celebrity in particular that I had literally been a huge fan of, and was anticipating coming because his film was debuting. He acted, wrote as well as directed it for the first time. I had been hoping since the fall semester that he would make an appearance.
That day I was volunteering I couldn't wait to finish so that I could head down to the Paramount (movie theater in Austin where the movie was showing) and see him come to the premiere on the red carpet (something I had always wanted to do). This was also my first time being among the fans behind the barricades at the red carpet, and one of my friends had been doing it all week and made it seem like it was a lot of fun.
My sister and I headed to the Paramount at six o' clock in the afternoon (the movie would be showing at nine thirty) to wait and get a good spot. As the night progressed, more and more fans started showing up near us, in just 30 minutes, about 20 people had shown up, by nine, there were at least 100. As the clock ticked later and later, more and more fans began closing in on me. As more people would show up, the further and further I was away from the red carpet. Three hours of waiting and I wasn't going to get to see anything because there were so many people literally being shoved into a small space behind a barricade by security. Security guards began screaming and pushing us all together after already being so close, at times, I really thought I was going to fall over. I was losing oxygen, losing my balance and losing my line of sight. This was not what I had came for. But alas, the last thing you want to do when back-to-back with strangers is start an argument. I had waited to long to just leave when it was already so close to time.
Finally, the moment had arrived, he was stepping out of his limo. I only knew by the screams and shrieks I was hearing. I couldn't see a thing. I was literally jumping and scrambling through the crowd to see, my sister even said to me where he was and that she could see him, but I could not. Finally, once he moved further away to be interviewed by the press (some of my fellow students were among the press that got to speak to him) I was able to catch small glimpses of his head.
It was during this time, that I began to question, why? Is this really worth it? After all he is famous. He sees screaming fans all the time. We all wait so long, and for what? A look? A moment this actor or actress is bound not to remember, and is used to doing there whole life. Why does this carry so much value? Value that others are willing to get unpleasant for, it was at this time that I had a moment of clarity. As a writer, and a movie-lover, it was this experience that made my will to become a famous writer even stronger. It was at this time that I realized, I didn't want to do this my whole life (standing behind a barricade, putting my safety in jeopardy). I found it more attainable to find something that I love, and take it far enough so that I can one day be a distinguished person (I don't need an Oscar or anything like that). To do something that would make me happy, so that I could get to where I wanted to be.
All of these famous people's dreams are coming true, and that is how they got to this desirable position, I too wanted to do the same, not for the fame, but for that ultimate feeling of satisfaction and joy of something naturally coming to you in life, and just pursuing what you want. I realized that these types of opportunities came to these people by themselves, it was at this time I realized that going to a red carpet event, and idolizing over people who will not remember won't better my life. It won't change it either. It only creates comparisons, and reasons for me to feel down on myself. Chances are I won't even remember this instance. Granted I am still very glad that I went and got to see him, it is something that stands out among my experiences in life. But not just because I got to see one of my most favorite actors, but because I realized this truth in my life along with it, that made me driven to be something more.
**Also, for those of you wondering, I would like to learn how to produce/direct film and hope to one day write a screenplay for a show or a movie.